나의 어머님은 장한 어머님 정 향섭 My mother is Jang Han-mom, Jeong Hyang-seop

나의 어머님은 장한 어머님 정 향섭

충남 홍성군 홍동면 월현리 개월에서 태어나셨다.

외 할아버지의  존함은 정대하. 원래 천석군을 하는 부자집 장남이었다고 한다.

내가 홍성 중학교 재학 시절 외 할아 버지가 어려서부터 정장년 시절까지 사시던 집을 지나가다가 봤다.

무슨 이유로 외 할아버지께서 빛을 많이 지고 그 집도 논밭도 팔고 3칸 초가 집에서 사시는 외 할머니와 외 할아버지  별거생활을할떼 처음 외갓 집을 갔었다.

두 분께서 딸 셋, 아들 하나를 두 었었다.

아들은 원인 모르르 병을 2년간 앓다가 청년 시절에 이 세상을 떠났다.

나의 아버지는  사춘기 시절 가출해서 천안 금광에서 노농 일을 하다거 안면도 집으로 돌아 가던 중 외 할아 버지를 맞나  외 할아버지가 친 딸 을  중신해서 그후 결혼했다는 말을 어머님 한테서 들었다. 어머님은 국민 학교 1년 다녔다고 ..

이조시대 우명한 학자요 저자요 정치가인  정약용이 어머님의 3대 고조 할아 버지 빨 이었다는 말을 들었다..

내가 자랄때  나는 어머님 한태 한번도 벌도 받지 안 했고 꾸지림을 들은  적이 없다.

이때는 부모가 자녀 보고 잘 한다는 말도 하지도 않고 사랑 한다란 말도 쓰지 안 했다.  갓 태어난 아기나 아주 어린 자녀 아이나 큰 자녀들을 안아 주지도 않고 키던 시절이었다.

우리 집안에서 나의 어머님은  똑똑하고 착하다고 이구 동성으로 칭찬을 했다.

 내가 패혈증(?)에 걸려 3개월 동안 외가집 방바닥에 누위 죽을 정도로 앓는 동안  안면도  집에서 나를 보러 어머님이 오시 안 했다는 이야기로 돌아 간다.

내 나이 17세 나는 죽는냐 사는냐 두려워하면서 무슨 병을 앓고 있는 지 몰으로 있었다. 그때 어머님을 보고 싶었다. 그러나 어머님을 미워하지도 않고 나쁜 어머니라고 생각은 안 했다.  내가 3 개월 동안  어머니께서 외가 댁이 한번도 나를 방문히지  않은 이유는 어머니가 나를 미워서가 아니 었다. 그러나 사랑하지 안해서 안오셨다고  지금 까지 생각 하지 않는다. 더구나 아픈 자식 나도 볼수있고  외 할머니 외 할아버지 그리고 동생 이모님도 볼수 있는데….

요즘 같이 전화도 없고 자가용 승용차도 없는 때…

안면도 집에서 외가 댁에 오시려면 5일마다 광천 장날 배를 타야 한다. 안면도 독깨란 해 변가에서 장배를 타고 홍성 광천 독배까지 약 12시간 정도 걸린다. 거기서 걸어 30리  정도 걸어야  외가 댁에 올 수 있기 때문에 건강하지 않으신 엄마가  오신다는 것은 거의 불가능했다.

그 당시 안면도 집에는 농사를 짓는 일군을 한분 두고 의식주를 책임지도 해 주는 것도 어머니가 주로 했다.

거기다가 여섯 동생들을 학교에 보내는 일, 육아하는 일 밥 해주는 일도 책임 지고 하셨다. 물론 아버도 대접 해야했다.  거기다가 어머님을 무순 이유로 자주 아파서 누웨 앓으셨다(나중에 알았지만 심장 승모판 등이 제대로 일을 하지 안했다).

이런 저련 사정을 알고 보면 어머님은  앓고 있는 나를 와서 보고 싶지만 하시지 못했던 것이다.

어머님 사랑해요.

걱정끼쳐 드려 죄송스러워요. 어머님은 장한 어머님이요

네가 열이 나고 몹씨 아파서 하숙집에서 혼자 기어 찾아간 홍성 도립 병원  이 00 의사 치료에 관해 좀 생각 하고 싶다.

그 의사는 서울 의대를 졸업하고 홍성읍에서 진료 하는 2-3명 의사들 중 한 분이었다. 그읍 젊은 의사였다.  나종에 알고 보니 홍성읍 떠나 서울 모의과 대학 교수로 일 했다고 한다.

70여년 전 한국 의사와 2024년도 미국 의료와  나의 진료 방법은 너무도 차이가 있지만  다음 이글을  쓰기로 한다  

만알 그 의사의 치료를 계속  받았으면 두 말 할 것 없이 나는 첫 째 진료를 받은 후 몇일 만에이 패혈증(박테리아 균이 잔 몸 속 피에 퍼져 있는 위독한 감염병)으로 죽었을 것이다.

첬째로 17세 어린 아아가 목 뒤에 고름이 줄줄 힐리고 패렬증 Sepsis(?)으로 독성 Toxic 하고 조금도 웃지 않고 아파 보이는 아이가 오면 이 아이는 죽을 병에 걸린 것 가트니까 부모들에 연락 해야 하는데 목구멍을 들여 다 보고 옷위 가슴에 청진기를 대고  가슴 청진해 보고 아스피린(?) 갈아 주고 집으로 보냈다.

이런 경우 목 뒤에 있었던 호발주를 일으킨 세균( 박테리아)이 뇌, 폐, 심장, 콩팥, 근육, 골 등 전신에 피로퍼지 가는 것이 보통이다. 제 대로 치료 해주지  않으면 100 % 죽는 다는 것을 다 아는 데… 아스피린 주어 하숙 집으로 이 어린사춘기 아이를 보내는 의사…

만일 내가 자기 자신이었더라면,

자기 친동생이었라면,

 또는 만일 자기 아들이었더라면,

의사는 다르게 치료했을까….

이런 환자 있으면 머리 끝에서 발 끝 까지 눈으로 살펴 보고 손으로 만저 보고 타진 해 보고 청진기로 진찰을 잘 해 보고 필요에 따라  피, 소변  검사 등도 하고 병원 입원 치료도 하고 자신이 치료 할 수 없으면 다른 의사의 도움을 받아 잘 치료 해야 한다.

 2024년 12월 8일 

My mother is Jang Han-mom, Jeong Hyang-seop

She was born in Wolhyeon-ri, Hongdong-myeon, Hongseong-gun, Chungcheongnam-do.

My maternal grandfather’s name was Jeong Dae-ha. It is said that he was originally the eldest son of a wealthy family that owned a thousand-seok family.

When I was attending Hongseong Middle School, I saw the house where my maternal grandfather lived from childhood to adulthood.

For some reason, my maternal grandfather sold the house and the fields and lived in a three-kan thatched house, and my maternal grandmother and maternal grandfather were living separately when I first visited my maternal grandparents’ house.

The two of them had three daughters and one son. Their son suffered from an unknown disease for two years and passed away in his youth.

My father ran away from home during his adolescence and worked as a miner at the Cheonan gold mine.

On his way back home to Anmyeondo, he met my maternal grandfather.

I heard from my mother that my maternal grandfather had taken his own daughter as his wife and later married her. My mother went to elementary school for one year..

I heard that Jeong Yak-yeong, a famous scholar, author, and politician during the Joseon Dynasty, was my mother’s three generration great-grandfather..

When I was growing up, I was never punished or scolded by my mother.

At that time, parents did not say that their children were good or that they loved them. It was a time when they did not hold their older children except for newborns or very young children.

In my family, my mother was always praised as smart and kind.

It goes back to the story that my mother did not come to see me at my maternal grandparents’ house while I was lying on the floor of my maternal grandparents’ house for three months with sepsis(?), so sick that I almost died.

I was 17 years old and I was afraid of whether I would live or die, and I did not know what illness I had. At that time, I wanted to see my mother.

However, I did not hate my mother or think she was a bad mother.

The reason my mother did not visit me at my maternal grandparents’ house for three months was not because she hated me. I still think that it was because she did not love me. Moreover, she can see me , my maternal grandparents, and my younger aunt… .

In these days when there are no phones or private cars…

If she wants to go to your maternal grandparents’ house from Anmyeondo, she has to take a boat on the Gwangcheon market day every five days. It takes about 12 hours to get to Dokbae from Anmyeondo Dokkaebi. Since she has to walk about 30 li from there to get to my maternal grandparents’ house, it was almost impossible for even healthy people to come.

At that time, there was a farm worker in Anmyeondo, and my mother was also responsible for providing food, clothing, and shelter. In addition, she was responsible for sending her younger siblings to school, raising them, and cooking for them. Of course, she had to take care of my father as well. In addition, my mother was very sick for some reason (I found out later that her heart valves were not working properly).

When I think about these circumstances, I think that my mother wanted to come and see me while I was sick, but she couldn’t.

I love you, mother.

I’m sorry for worrying you.

You are a great mother.

I want to think about the treatment you received from Dr. 00 at Hongseong Provincial Hospital, which I went to alone from my boarding house because I had a fever and was very sick. The doctor graduated from Seoul National University College of Medicine and was one of the 2-3 doctors practicing in Hongseong-eup. He was a young doctor in the town. I found out later that he had left Hongseong-up and worked as a professor at Some University.

There is a huge difference between the treatment methods of Korean doctors 70 years ago and American medicine in 2024, but I will write the next article.

If I had continued to receive treatment from that doctor, I would have died of sepsis a few days after my first treatment.

Third, when a 17-year-old child came in with pus oozing from the back of his neck and sepsis(?), a toxic child who didn’t smile at all and looked very sick, It should call the parents because we thought the child had a fatal disease. He looked down my throat, put a stethoscope on my chest over his clothes, gave me an aspirin(?), and sent me home. In these cases, the bacteria that caused the pus in the back of his neck usually spread to my entire body, including my brain, lungs, heart, kidneys, muscles, and so on. Everyone knows that if doctors don’t treat such patients properly, they’ll die 100% of the time. As he gave me aspirin and sent me to a boarding house…outcome is dead

If it were yourself

if it were your own brother,

or if it were your son,

would you have treated me differently?

If you have a patient like this, you should look at him from head to toe with your eyes, touch him with your hands, feel him, examine him with a stethoscope, and if necessary, do blood and urine tests and hospitalize him for treatment. If you can’t treat him by yourself, you should get help from another doctor to treat him well.

December 8, 2024